Falling Wisely
Hayyei Sarah offers us a scene straight out of a romantic comedy. By the middle of the parashah, Rebekah has agreed to follow Abraham鈥檚 servant back to Canaan, where she will meet and marry Isaac. Rebekah and the servant near their destination on camelback as the afternoon draws to a close, and Isaac is wandering in the fields. The mood is set for an elegant and romantic first meeting.
But instead of a picturesque moment in which the betrothed parties walk steadily toward each other, their cloaks blowing gently in the wind, Genesis 24:64 tells us:
Rebekah lifted her eyes, saw Isaac, and fell off the camel.
A straightforward read of the scene would suggest that this was not the first impression Rebekah would have wanted, and her subsequent behavior also suggests a hint of embarrassment on her part. Instead of proceeding immediately toward Isaac, she first asks Abraham鈥檚 servant who this field-wanderer might be. When he responds that it is his master (and hence her betrothed), she immediately covers herself with a veil鈥攑erhaps out of modesty, but perhaps simply because she is mortified.
Yet several of the classical commentators do not read Rebekah鈥檚 fall as accidental at all, but rather as a deliberate decision. In fact, they read both the fall and the veil as intentional indications of her modesty. Comparing the use of the verb 鈥渢o fall鈥� here with its purposive meaning in the expression 鈥渢o fall upon one鈥檚 face,鈥� meaning 鈥渢o worship,鈥� Ibn Ezra envisions Rebekah launching herself off the camel as a submissive reaction to seeing her future husband. Rashbam suggests that she was ashamed before him because she had been riding the camel 鈥渓ike a man鈥� instead of side-saddle.
The commentators may have chosen this less likely interpretation because they were uncomfortable with this passage鈥檚 subversion of what feminist film critic Laura Mulvey termed the 鈥渕ale gaze,鈥� often more accurately referred to as the 鈥渟traight male gaze鈥濃�攖hat is, the fact that movies, art, and visual descriptions in literature frequently take the perspective of a heterosexual man gazing with desire on the female form. Western culture鈥檚 focus on women as erotic objects of course long predates film and is ubiquitous across the ancient world. Yet in this passage, the typically gendered roles of sight and desire are reversed. Isaac does look up from his meditations in the field, but Gen. 24:63 implies that all he notices are the camels. It is Rebekah who sees the cute guy in the field, is so overwhelmed by her feelings in response that she briefly loses her composure, and turns to the person next to her to whisper, 鈥淲ho鈥檚 that?鈥� This unchecked expression of female desire might not have been particularly amenable to commentators who wished to portray a modest, seemly, virtuous matriarch, and so they opted instead to depict her as self-sacrificingly modest.
While this is undeniably a misogynistic interpretive move, it also is worth noticing that in attributing modesty to Rebekah, the commentators also attribute more agency to her. Rebekah surely understood the behavior expected of her as a woman in her society, and maybe the commentators assume that she鈥攍ike them鈥攖hought that her best bet was to conform to them as closely as possible. If we imagine that Rebekah鈥檚 fall is completely intentional, we might imagine a woman who is not (literally) swept away by her feelings, but rather a woman who sees someone she suspects may be her future husband and makes a quick, calculated decision about how to act.
Most of us, I think, experience the newest of new beginnings鈥攁 burgeoning friendship or romance, a new academic path, or an exciting career opportunity that presents itself鈥攁s some combination of these two types of 鈥渇alling.鈥�
On the one hand, it is no coincidence that many of our metaphors for these beginnings, especially the ones we find most delightful, refer to the unintentional type of falling: we fall head over heels for someone; a job falls into our laps. We see ourselves as responding wholeheartedly to an exciting situation, spontaneously reacting to experiences as they present themselves to us. This is an important way of relating to the world as our full selves, acknowledging that we are not always in control and that as we go through the world we (whatever gender we may be) may experience and sometimes act on strong, even overwhelming emotions.
On the other hand, we also need to make decisions about how we present ourselves in new situations, and we might decide that it鈥檚 worth whatever it takes to prove from the outset that we are exactly who we want to be in our new role. As we launch ourselves into a job or a relationship, we often want to establish control over our own behavior and how others perceive us, which can be just as valuable and important as our moments of emotional expression.
The Netziv (Naftali Tzvi Yehuda Berlin, head of the Volozhin yeshiva in Lithuania in the 19th century) offers yet another read of Rebekah鈥檚 fall from the camel in Ha鈥檃mek Davar, his commentary on the Torah. He suggests that she fell out of neither love nor modesty, but because she saw Isaac and felt fear. Noting that only afterwards does she ask the servant about the stranger鈥檚 identity, the Netziv adds, 鈥淗owever, she didn鈥檛 even know who she was scared of.鈥� I think this comment gets at the heart of Rebekah鈥檚 reaction to seeing Isaac, however we choose to interpret it. Feelings of fear, overwhelming excitement, and desire for control are all responses to facing the unknown. When we find ourselves at the start of something whose end is still hidden from us, may we have the courage and the wisdom to know how to fall.
The publication and distribution of the 91快播 Commentary are made possible by a generous grant from Rita Dee (锄鈥漧) and Harold Hassenfeld (锄鈥漧).
